Grr!!!!

Vani came over about five hours ago, and we were gonna go for our walk but we wanted to post first. Then her mother says, my mother says; that no one's meant to be over when she's not home.
I don't really think this applies to Vani, but - ahh, I'll have to wait till she gets home to confirm this.
Sooo~ We didn't go for our walk.
Before she left we decided that going out for our walk wouldn't count, and she said she was going to change and come back, but she hasn't yet.
I was feeling soso today about the walk - I was going to go, because I'm meant to go, but I wasn't as pumped as yesterday.
Probably because of sore legs. Legs not used to carrying this much weight and lack muscle completely.
The breathing and everything else is fine, its just my weak shins.

Theeenn I started wondering if I should walk alone, but - I don't know. I didn't want to. I'd rather go with Vani.
Maybe its because I'm just starting out, and I need that extra support with me, for now. But I hope that I'll be able to go alone soon.
So that sort of got me down -
but apart from that, I decided if I'm not gonna go for a walk, I might as well do some exercises at home.
Turned on America's Next Top Model for some thinspo (Though, I don't really like any of the girls :x I think I just like myself, but thinner :x way better.) and started doing exercise as much as possible.
As I got tired I resigned to doing them during the commercials --
ah, it's hard. It's tiring, but I felt really good after. I took a little bit more breaks than I intended, but I did finish it all.
The sit ups were the hardest.
But I feel my tummy burning, and I love it.
Weighed in at 198 today.
So it's been like a lb a day since we started --
Jeez, I really need to stop weighing everyday and weigh every week, this way I can get the full blast instead of little surprises. I knooow, but I'm just so excited I keep on checking anyways.
Had two eggs for breakfast, plain and scrambled - and divided a lean pocket in half to have throughout the day so far to feel more full, 260 calories.
It's almost evening and I exercised today and didn't eat much but just enough.
I think I'll exercise more too, plus, I have our night walk to look forward to.
All in all, I still feel pretty good about it.
I dled Power 90 and I'm going to take a look at it and see what I can manage. Anyone try it before?
PS: Anyone know of exercises to strengthen the muscles in your legs that you use when walking/running?
I want to get my strong asap, and focus on those exercises so I can do better when we walk; they seem to be my biggest weakness atm.
Keep it up girls!
xo Pixie

EDIT:

Baack. Did another hour of exercising.

I'm really sweating eww, but I got my heart up. Strengthening muscles should help the burn when I'm not moving.

Worked with five lb weights this time around - and while I did pace myself, I made sure I finished everything and did at least three sets of each exercise, but aimed for five.

So, I think push ups definitely beat sit ups. I didn't even do the usual ones, I did the ones where you balance on your knees and cross your ankles together - for now. Hopefully I'll get better at it all~

I also get tired when doing the machines at the gym - but they do feel easier.

But technically speaking, say I do a machine and I set the weights whatever, I'm lifting and working with that much, but when I do these floor exercises, I'm instead lifting my own weight - which is heavier, so essentially I'm lifting more weight doing them at home?

Is that true? I'm pretty ignorant about exercise (as you probably can tell)...

if so, I'll aim my exercises at home till I can pull them off well before adding the gym back on, this way I can do more at the gym too.

Either way - exercise is tiring, the muscles burn, and I'm pretty sure I'm doing it right,

so hopefully, I'm still getting SOMETHING done. 

If anyone can give me more input on this, or beginning with exercise in general, I'd love to hear!

Keep strong!

xo Pixie

P.S: The manager at subway told me I'm pretty much hired, he just wants me to come in and talk to him -- yahoo, more time on my feet! And working around food like that, is going to make my hunger settle, because I hate working with food :x 

Starting. KINDA LONG SRY.

Hey again, Pixie here :o)

Vani just went home, we had a little snack x( (Damn my eating late!) but today's intake totals at 600 calories!

Yay!

I don't think I'll be eating more tonight~ Vani also had 600 calories, I guess from staying over here.

She did have a soda but I don't think she needs to worry much about it, she did well on our first day of exercise, she's athletic and I'm not so I had a bit of a harder time~ but I don't want to be negative, because when I got home and calmed down a bit, it definitely felt worth it - I did better than I thought I would, I'm pretty pleased with myself.

First things first, we took these pics earlier today, our first picture for starting! I think we'll take pics every week. I know weeks won't be much of a difference - it might be better to take them every two weeks but, eh. When we hit success it'll be cool to montage them together for a smoother weight loss video, ey!?

So here we are.

...

Oh crap. I forgot to pull off the picture from Vani's laptop >_<

Shoot, I guess I'll have to post it tomorrow :x Sowwy guys.

Hm, I have pics of myself too, pics of when I was at my LW and more recent ones, but ~

I don't really want to post them, not yet.

It's not like I have a problem showing myself online (I don't!) but~

I got my name on account that I want a pixie haircut and I'm gonna try and hold off snapping my face until I can get one, or maybe I'll at least wait until our halfway mark.

It'll be worth the wait! but no worries, you'll get to see my flabby belly tomorrow.

Its depressing yeah, but for now I'll try and ...keep my attitude positive. I feel positive and I want to take a whole new approach to weight loss ~

I'll just think of this flabby tissue as a stray pet I've gotten attached to or something.

Like a chubby kitten or something.

And, yeah - I'm gonna kick my little pet to the curb!

:x maybe a kitten wasn't the best of examples.

Just weighed in at the same weight as yesterday, and that's fine with me, I didn't feel as light as yesterday for some reason, I expected to of gained like 4 lbs. But I didn't.

It's hard, but I'm thinking of maybe weighing myself once a week instead of everyday~

This way, the weight loss will seem greater. 

But if I gain weight, it might seem worse....

hmm.

No, I can't think about gaining weight, because that's not what I'm doing here.

We're losing it people, we're losing our chubby kittens. :x rofl, I'm so weird.

I tend to post long - I know, but I'll try and cover as much as I can remember for today~

Me and Vani met up around noon. We were gonna walk, but I ended up going over to try and get a job at subway. I don't know why, but I think working with food sort of gets me sick of it. I think that's probably why I don't eat as it is. It's not the taste - taste doesn't do much for me, its all about textures, smell and look.

I just never liked most foods in that way, I'm very picky :x

Hopefully I get that job, I'll need the money - for a car, school, and clothes. Lots o' clothes. clothes, clothes, c l  o   t    h     e      sssssss. 

Oh, speaking of cloooothes, after we hit up subway me and Vani got a new idea. A challenge, really.

We hopped on over to a cute privately owned boutique and it had a lot of cheap though nice stuff you couldn't just get at any wholesale business.

Pick out a clothing item you really, REALLY like.

Make sure it's too tight or too small.

And promise when you reach your first goal, that that's what you'll be wearing~

And it'll be your own little reward.

I'm sure most of you girls do this already, I've done something similar with my clothes from when I was at my LW (120), but this time I think I want to buy something completely new, something specifically for just this.

I'll be able to pick out whatever I want, I won't even have to worry about being disappointed about going into a fitting room. No, I'll just pick it out and walk out with that thing paid and ready for me. Who cares if all the girls in that store are smaller than me. Who cares if they'll assume I'm buying a present for someone else. Nah-ah girl, cos' the only one who's gonna rock these threads is me.

Mm, I'm loving myself more and more with this positive attitude of mine. Because there's a real me, and that me is beautiful. That real me is thin. I know you don't have to be thin to be beautiful, but that's how I am, and how i'm meant to be. 

Knowing that that's really me, I know I'll lose the weight. Because there's a person, already thin, already waiting there for me, waiting to wear the things I should be wearing and being the happy person I should be.

Nah, I am happy. It's too bad it took me this long to realize who I am, but now that I know I'm grabbing on and not letting go. 

We also stopped into Target.

It was fun! Turns out me and Vani both got a taste of what our styles are.

They're pretty different, sort of exact opposites - but I like that. Sort of like our nicknames.

Vanity likes feminine items, heels and flowing dresses - she's like the ideal woman, imo.

And me? I'd rather be grungy and rustic, slacks and loose tops, I want tarnished leather and boots I can get dirty.

Just - being fat and wearing that sort of thing, you just end up looking like a slob LOL.

So yeah, suffice it to say I haven't been my style for a long while, but I will. I will.

As for my LW - I don't know if you guys noticed, but it was rather close to my GW.

Well, I don't want to blog crazy about what happened, I'll just summarize it and not write up some depressing sob bs, because this is a blog about a happy transition, not a sad one.

I've been clean off of h____n for a little over a year now.

I lost the weight during my addiction, and it was because I wasn't consuming anything but drugs.

I have to say, though I got close to my LW - I never noticed. I still felt fat and big. It's because though I probably looked more like the me I'm trying to become now in terms of weight, it wasn't me.

So -- I hope you know ladies, its not about the weight, its just about transforming into the butterfly you're supposed to be.

After getting clean and out of the game, I was depressed being sober and the weight packed on fast - my body was probably just trying to cling to as much fat as it could at that point, to survive.

So, maybe thats why I have a positive attitude this time around.

I don't really feel ashamed of gaining as much weight, because I know I wasn't happy even though I was smaller anyways. I guess its just not about that.

But, I am happier now. And I will be even happier as I slowly return to being me again.

I can't wait to show you guys -

my pixie haircut.

I'll be sure to post a lot of pictures when that day comes along.

I don't know who's reading this, but whoever you are - I'm glad to know that I'm not along.

Even if its just Vani, I know I can make this work - we can make this work, because that's what its meant to be.

MCooke, thank you so much for following and your kind words, I love reading your entries! you're so inspiring love :D and congrats on 73's!

118 and embre, I hope to learn more about you guys and I've enjoyed reading what I have so far, thanks for following me and Vani on our journey.

ANYWAYS -d e e p b r e a t h e- now that that awkward bit is done, I can talk a bit about walking.

So our first walk - *speedwalk* we left at nighttime but we spent about 80 minutes outside!

I didn't plan that at all! I need to find out how far we went, I'll have to google map it. I don't know what it was - maybe because Vani was with me, but my legs were in terrible pain and we were both sweating like crazy, and when I decided to sprint a little bit, I thought I was going to suffocate. but. 

I didn't slow down, I kept my heart rate up. We took a short break sitting at the end of our walk, but to and from home I didn't stop at all! I have to say I thought I would, and I thought I'd of done a lot worse, I didn't think I'd manage that at all, but I did it, and it felt great, and this is just day one.

I can't wait to see how well I do a week from now!

I even wanted to go into the pool when we got back, but Vani couldn't stay as long, as we didn't.

But jeez, I was miserably sweating and exhausted from it, but I still wanted to exercise more - it was a great feeling, and I think we were really productive today.

I'm a little jealous that Vani is athletic and I'm not, but it only makes me anticipate when I can really keep up to her, and we can push each other a little more.

My breathing wasn't so bad, it was just my shins. I think its because from getting towards my LW previously, and then to my HW now, I didn't move or exercise at all. I just shrank from not eating anything and my legs aren't used to carrying so much weight that I have now. But they will, dammit - and they'll carry it well. :)

Today's exercise was great, I did better than I thought I would, longer and farther than I thought - and while it felt excrutiating and impossible at times, let me tell you something --

I didn't die.

So yeah, we're going to try and walk again tomorrow, in the morning and at night - I just can't wait until I can run. 

Mm, what a great feeling. And I'm so much heavier than I could fathom - I'm like 90 lbs away from my GW.

But I'm not worried at all, I still feel great.

Let's stay strong people! Let's beat this together.

xoxo PIXIE.

UMMMm...

This is my first blog post ever!

The name Vanity pretty much says it all, I am a fashion obsessed New York teen.
I have spent the last sixteen years of my life struggling with my self image,at 5''11 my passion for clothing has  much contradicted my wardrobe. I consider myself  an optical illusion, because I am so tall I guess you could say that I don't exactly "wear my weight". When most people hear 200 pounds  they think , well you know...
Both a  blessing and a curse I've only recently learned to embrace my height, This year is my year!

                           Its time for this socially- awkward- butterfly to bust out of her cocoon..

VICTORY POSE?!

I am the biggest oxymoron.. "the shy camera whore"

My dorky super embarrassing dream is to be a plus sized model(yeah I know)Cant a girl dream???

By reaching my goal weight(175) I'll feel that much closer to my dream.I feel like Sylvester Stallone in his1976 role as Rocky Balboa ... For so long I have been caught in this never ending fight with my weight up and down,well now I'm ready to come out like knock out!!!

Oh yeah!

THE PLAN

So, I head back to school September 13, 

This means time is not on my side,My goal of 165 by my first day is a dream..However, I have found the answer to my weight loss prayers . The " 21 pounds in 21 days" diet is a weight loss plan  centered to  natural detoxification.While on the diet, Dieters are supposed to cleanse their bodies by drinking liquids every two hours. They choose from a limited number of options including water, homemade soups, juices made from fruits and vegetables, and powdered antioxidant berry and green drinks available from the author's web site.

 


                                                            -Vanity<3

Pixie here~

Yaaaaaay Vani posted her first blog entry! Soo, our plans to walk in the morning didn't exactly work out buttt it's like 9 PM and we're gonna go now! I'll/We'll post after we get back.

Less than a pound...

Okay, so it's nearly 5 AM and when I weight myself yesterday morning I came in at an exact 200.00 lbs,
which was 8 lbs lost and leaving me pretty happy with straight 0's.
I'm about to go to bed, and I was browsing/reading blogs for motivation when I decided to weigh myself one more time before passing out.

199.2

Hehehe. I know I was pretty happy about the 0's and I know it's probably just less than a lb of water weight gone or something, but I have to say I prefer that 199 as opposed to 200, so I'll keep my 0.8 lbs, tyvm! :o)
I have a good feeling about this first week.

I already know I don't eat much, but I've been hearing about the ABC diet and other diets, but I've decided to just monitor how I eat for one week naturally - because I know my issue is lack of exercise and not excessive eating (damn my shot metabolism!), but, see you tomorrow! (today!)

xo Pixie
Haha, here's a picture of salami. I google image'd "0.8 lb"

 

Pixie - Weigh In: 199.2 lbs - 1GW: 39.2 lbs to go! TGW: 89.2 lbs to go! TWL: -10.8 lbs

Win & Lose

Sooo.
Me and Vani's plans to go for our first speedwalk didn't work out today.
Originally we were going to go in the morning, but I needed an extra hour of sleep - I don't even know what time it was when she stopped by, and when I went on over so we could walk, Vani needed to clean her kitchen.
By the time she was done, I guess she had somewhere to go and she didn't get back until it was night time.

We could've gone out for our walk at night I guess, but it wasn't in the plans and I really rather stick to our proposed schedule of walking in the morning, or at the very least, during the day. Wouldn't want to make a habit of going out at night.

On a lighter note, I consumed about 500 calories today in food. Had something small in the morning, and then some dinner when the mother came home. It wasn't even intended, I just wasn't feeling hungry at all - I think those chinese pills really do curb your appetite. I never was much of a big eater anyways,
so it was even easier.
I found out these pills are called "Body Treasure" - Website here. [Testimonials]
Granted the spelling on the box and on the site are short of correct spelling and proper english - but that's to be expected.
I'm only three days in and I feel lighter and less bloated in general, and I certainly think I'm getting smaller; so I'm glad I got a chance to try them out, because otherwise I wouldn't have any faith in the [little] information they give you on the site.
Three days and I've dropped 8 lbs! Weighed in at exactly 200.00 today.
Though I certainly need to add some exercise into the mix, and I'm not worried about my eating habits.
I'm pretty sure the weight loss (from the pills alone) will decrease in effectiveness overtime, but luckily feeling lighter and more comfortable in body in general makes me feel more ready to exercise. I'll have a real conclusion about the pills once a month rolls by~
So, though I am disappointed me and Vani didn't go for our walk, my body still felt great today and I didn't eat unhealthy.
I'm really starting to feel the positive energy this time around.
I decided to browse etsy a bit and favorite some clothing that I'd love to rock out when I'm thinner.
Here's a few of them to keep me inspired when I look back in on this blog:

I really love these sort of loose, somewhat simple tops.

Would love to bring back the tiny denim jacket on a tiny waist!
I think I'm going to make my own version of this design to celebrate when I get down to my goal weight :)

I think this blazer would rock with a pair of ripped skinny jeans...
Oh fashion! Oh glorious fashion! Oh future closet filled with delicate handmade creations and fragile textures!
Can't wait to dress the way I should be stylin~ in my head, the clothes are motivation alone!
Is it possible to be a fashion aficionado for the hell of it? I'd have a hell of a time making my own things at FIT but I'd be foolin' myself if I'd try and make a career of a hobby that's just FUN.
Clothes, my beloved, here I come!

xoxoxo Pixie :o)
Pixie - Weigh In: 200.00 lbs - 1GW: 40 lbs to go! TGW: 90 lbs to go! TWL: -10 lbs
(Sorry I didn't get to get Vani on the scale! :o( )

The First Night

This is a collaborative blog between two girls - hopefully to encourage us to keep record of our weight loss 'journey'.
I'm Pixie - One of my goals to getting in shape is that I'd like to look good with a short boy cut - a pixie cut.
I guess. I'm 5'3 and 21 years old.
Vanity is 5'11 and 16, and she just wants to look nice.
We both seem to be bad at keeping a blog and I haven't ever been athletic and Vani likes to eat food but -- we're hoping our joint efforts will get us some results this time.
It's already late tonight but tomorrow we plan to go running [speedwalking]

Goal 1 is to start walking everyday for two weeks.

Vani wants to lose 20 lbs and I want to looose 60 lbs maybe? Yeahh, I am the shorter one out of us and I've uhh, let myself go a bit, haha.
Hopefully working out with someone else will keep me more disciplined. My lowest weight was 130 (And I didn't even care then!) Well not caring has certainly come to bite me in the ass, and depending on how well the progress is I'm thinking I want to pass my lowest weight and hit 115. Van says it's too little but I am shorter, well; we'll see how it goes.

Anyways my approach this time around to weight loss I think, is the best than before.
I am not going to worry about my weight, and just focus on the fact that I want to do something about it -- try and keep a positive attitude and don't feel discourage, even if I think I'm not working hard enough.
Every little step counts -- at least that's how I'm trying to think for now. But I'll get impatient and step up the game as I get into the habit.

We are both going to do the walking, will update on that in two weeks.
And we are both going to do a 7 day 'juice fast' and post results in a week.
Vani is going to do a water fast and dieter's tea, she is a vegetarian and eats meals.
I don't really eat that much, so I tend to snack a bit. I'm on my second day of starting a sort of 'cleansing' pill my mother got from Chinatown. Seems to work well so far,
Since this is the first week of our journey I don't think we're going to be too strict, but definitely makes the changes by walking daily and trying to fast to see how it works out and we'll take a firmer grasp on what we're doing after how we see the first week/two goes.
My CURRENT goal is to try and drop 5 lbs a week. I'd like to make it higher once I get more involved.
I think if I work hard it'd be highly possible to lose 30 lbs in one month, which I would hopefully be at my goal in two!
Ah well, can't get too ahead of myself, let's aim for 5 lbs a week for now :o)
Catch ya later blog~ I hope that I'll be updating you with some good news soon. And maybe Vani will type herself too, once we get more excited.


Pixie's fun reasons to get in shape!:
1.Short haircut!
2.Dancing!
3.Kung fu Master!
4.Vlogging!
5.Fashion!

Vanity's fun reasons to get in shape!:
1.Kung Fu Master!
2.Smaller clothing!
3.Comfort!
4.Movie making!
5.Photoshoots!

I think I need to stimulate and encourage myself with positive things as much as possible, it's the only way to get motivated. So I'm going to look up a piece of clothing I'd like to buy after I get smaller!
Hmm..

Here we go!
I think these leggings are adorable. Leggings are so cute in general, simple and go with a lot of tops.


Here's something Vanity would like to pull off - Jumpers!

xoxo Pixie ~